當初

脆弱的天使

那受傷的心

是否因該把他遺忘呢

我就站在一旁

心痛無奈等你

對你的感覺

我很不確定

對她的喜歡也被動搖

後來才領悟到

逐漸地愛上你

你對我的感覺不同往日

我對你的真心逐漸鎮加

我的離開

是想知道

當初對你的愛是否真假

只怪我不可以

表達當初愛情

所以才會

決定傷心離開

我自私的舉動

更想愛護這你

結果我卻失去了你

只怪我不可以

告訴當初的你

我的心裏

只想唯一有你

站在孤單路口

看這遠離的你

無能挽留

林宥嘉“背影”

到最后 

 *那年错过的爱情 再也不会醒 

树下孤单的落叶 何时才随风去 

 我的话 你都细心地听 

我的事 你都关心着 

我的心 你却没捉紧着 

我不知道那是爱还是习惯 

我的心无法给我一个答案 

我害怕会伤到你的心 

你的关心 再也得不到 

我不知道心里要的是什么 

我对你的感觉已不同往日 

到最后 是否该放弃你 

 *repeat 

到最后 是否该放弃 

我不知道那是爱还是习惯 

我的心无法给我一个答案 

我害怕会伤到你的心 

你的关心 再也得不到 

我不知道心里要的是什么 

我对你的感觉已不同往日 

到最后 是否该放弃你 

 ＂王力宏 - 你不知道的事＂

I see hope.

Do u?

Please don't tell me it's all a lie. 

The whole week, She's sick.
I felt like shit when there isn't much thing I can do.
All I can do..
.
.
.
Just plain worries.





I used to be someone so approachable
But I saw her eyes filled with tears
And I can't do anything
.
.
.
Why is that so?




"I afraid I will make you sad" 
Maybe I'm really not the right guy
Perhaps I should just remain as a close friend
.
.
.
What if she is serious about it?

I wanted to tell you that 

she is just a friend. 

And nothing else.

But, before I even tell you.

I thought u might not even care.

So should I tell u or not?

Came across a new song "讓我愛你" sang by 胡夏. 

The lyrics somehow linked quite closely to my life. 

當你皺著眉頭　

問我該怎麼做 

你對他的遷就　

只讓他一錯在錯 

你努力找藉口　

還說你是不是應該更溫柔 

我的心痛了 

我以為我可以　

當你的好朋友 

只要在你身邊　

守護你這樣就夠了 

我發現我錯了　

看你為他掙扎 

流淚不快樂　

我卻捨不得 

可不可以讓我愛你 

可不可以別再受委屈 

你值得被愛 被人好好珍惜 

只有我最懂你　

別再沉溺 他的刺激　

讓自己喘不過氣 

我愛你 我等你 不要遲疑 

我就在這裡 

我以為我可以　

當你的好朋友 

只要在你身邊　

守護你這樣就夠了 

我發現我錯了　

看你為他掙扎 

流淚不快樂　

我卻捨不得 

可不可以讓我愛你 

可不可以別再受委屈 

你值得被愛 被人好好珍惜 

只有我最懂你　

別再沉溺 他的刺激　

讓自己喘不過氣 

我愛你 我等你 不要遲疑 

我就在這裡 

可不可以讓我愛你 

可不可以別再受委屈 

你值得被愛　

被人好好珍惜 

只有我最懂你　

別再沉溺 他的刺激　

讓自己喘不過氣 

我愛你 我等你 不要遲疑 

就讓我愛你

I think of u every now and then It sucks Because I can't tell you how much I Miss U.

Every night before i go to bed. I make sure i did not miss what u posted on fb I make sure u are the last person i think of And i make sure i check my phone first thing in the morning whether u msg me Thats crazy isnt it?? I guessed i just miss u too much.

You are my only wish.

What if there isn't any feelings?

You have no one else to blame except yourself 

for not been able to cherish the opportunity. 

You thought that avoiding her to confirm your feelings towards her 

could give you a clearer path but by then, she's long gone. 

You always fear of rejection and in the end, 

you failed to express your true feelings when the time is right. 

You told her someone will be there to save her when the boat capsized.

But she doesn't want it to be you 

she doesn't have feelings for you

she would rather die drowning then been saved by you

You used to be the one but 

All you can do now is just stood at one corner of the room 

and see her fall in love with some one else.

Stop blaming the world

blame yourself. 

A week left to see whether last year wish come true or not. 

So looking forward to this coming Wednesday.

=)

Days isn't easy when everywhere I go, 

it reminds me of how we used to spend time there

I drove passed Old Town @ ECP.. 

and it reminds me the day you drank a cup of kopi-o 

that kept u awake throughout the night. 

It was our first few meetings. =)

I took a scroll at Bugis 

and it reminds me of the Dessert Shop and MOS Burger 

that we spent dinner there. 

It was the first time we get caught in the rain 

while I sent you home with my bike. =)

Although

Love has a simple spelling

but

it's a complicated thing to handle.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

It take lots of courage 

to confess what you really feel

And it really feel dishearten 

when what you confessed 

was thought to be a joke.

Time flies, yet the memories of you still circulating within my mind.

I thought I can stop myself from loving you, thinking of you, but I was wrong.

Somebody ever said that if you truly love someone, you'll spend a moment thinking of him/her right before you end your day. Right, you're still the one I think of before I sleep.

"My mind is telling me this and my heart is telling me there."

I had a dream of you last night

it was a beautiful dream

just you and me

and

nobody else

it's dream i wouldn't want to get awaken for

and wishes it will last forever

Afterall a dream is still a dream

I woke up

and i remember every single thing about it

I didn't want to

because

Some one ever mentioned that

"Dreams that you will remembered, will never happen in actual life"

I wanted to forget it

But I can't

The more I want to forget it

the more the dreams is clearer in my mind

I admitted

I can't forget you

in fact

I wouldn't want to

I know it might sounded silly

without any contacts

without any conversation

My heart still races to it maximum

whenever i think of you

"Never take someone for granted.

Hold the correct person close to your heart

because your might wake up one day

and realize that you've lost a diamond

while you were too busy collecting stones."

'Trying to forget someone you love

is like trying to remember someone

you never met."

"The worst thing of love

is you trying to confess your love to the one you love,

but u worry of his/her rejection,

so in the end

u just sit quietly there and gaze at that person,

unitl she/he realizes that

you had falling in love with them."

"In a sentence of love,

oftentimes you have to put a period on something

that has to end and not just settle on a comma.

In time,

you will realize that it's nicer to see a complete sentence rather than a phrase

that's completely hanging

and

doesn't even make any sense."

Alright,

I'm scared.

Can someone save me please?

=(

Or perhaps,

I thought too much?

-_-?

Ignorance makes one hurts.

It's just like the wind..

Come and go..

Come and go..

Come and go..

It will never stay there..

For the very first time,

one asked,

"Am I ready?"

What's going through my mind?

What's going through yours?

What's going through our minds?

.

.

.

.

.

.

Not sure..

No answers..

Can't confirm..

.

.

.

.

To all beautiful angels out there..

please show me some guidance.

I need it desparately.

=(

Things are reali unpredictable.

you dunno what might happen the next moment.

so people..

treasure life.

it's vulnerable.

.

.

.

.

.

Ah Pin Kor Kor..

You did us proud.

Rest in peace

='(

GOODBYE REAL WORLD

In a few hours time,

I'll be off to Home Team Academy.

Beginning of a long and challenging journey.

It's gonna be 6 months of physical and mental training.

I'm so gonna miss my hair.

The outside food and drink!

Chomp chomp beancurd,

chocolate milk tea with double pudding.

etc.. etc.. etc..

To all friends,

Please kindly take good care of yourselves.

To ChunSiang and ChuanYuan,

All the best for your enlistment this coming friday!

To Guangyao and Norton,

Enjoy while you can.. =)

To Weiting,

all the best for your Uni stuff!

To Rechel,

Take care and enjoy life back at ur fav workplace!

To Eric,

Please recover soon and hope to see you strong and fit soon!

Goodbye everyone!

LOVELOVE!

=)

UPDATES

Sorry to all for the lack of updates.

was rather busy working for the past few weeks.

Asian Youth Games and AVA.

Finally, all the jobs are done and i can enjoy myself before appointment date.

talking abt appointment date,

it's actually a so call "enlistment date" for my police career.

Yes! CAREER!

MINDEF have disrupted me from NS,

allowing me to sign on as a police officer.

In another words,

I'm gonna be a police officer for the next 5 years.

=)

9th June 2009

wish me all the best!

Say "bye bye" to poly life.

3 year just passed in a blink of an eye

officially graduated from TP Engineering on 20th May 09.

GPA??

Don't mention it la.. if it's high, of cos i'll post it here.

So readers, make ur own guesses lah.

My 21st birthday,

held at pasir ris costa sand.

the best birthday celebration so far.

flying cakes, swimming pools, surprises,

etc..

I'll nv forget my 21st birthday..

Thanks everyone who came..

you guys will remain in my heart forever.

=)

For photos, please kindly visit my facebook.

cos blogger doesnt allow me to upload photo

as fast as facebook!

=p

Hi World

its been really awhile since i last updated. well.. not that im busy with my life but purely because of plain laziness. haha.. anyway.. shall write everything that happen for the last couple of weeks.

Melvin's Enlistment

Hoo.. i bet almost everybody in the group are suffering under the "Post Melvin's Enlistment Sickness" you can call it "PMES". Hahaha.. Obviously we missed him so much.. =) The one and only womanizerorganiser) that the group recognised man.. Now everybody should have clearly understand this saying; "People tend to only truely treasure things when they lost it.". Nobody to ask us out for dinner, swimming session, tanning session, badminton session, good food session, jogging session and etc..

His very first booked out was like someone birthday party lah.. everybody wanted to see him.. =) and we even decided to have his favourite fast food "Popeye" together.. Anyway, i guessed NS isn't a thing that singaporean boys can escape la.. It just that, "Oh! it's mel's turn now" hahaha.. Sooner or later everyone will be serving the nation liao lo.. =) I know its kind of late to post it here, but then, better than nothing la.. hahahas.. "ALL THE BEST MY BRO!!!" Ok.. Im getting emo now.. this shows how important melvin is to me lah.. =( Nevertheless, hope he's doing fine right now.. We shall meet up soon man! =)

Police Interview

Hmm.. Like.. FINALLY! Haha.. I was shortlisted by Singapore Police Force for an interview and physical assessment couple of weeks back at Police HQ. So during the physical assessment part.. I was damn shocked lah.. haha.. didn't expect to have a full body check up by the officers there la.. =D hahaha.. I jokingly told a guy beside me who look pretty stunned like me that; "Was it kind of a scam?" hahaha.. So.. good news is.. Im physically alright for the post of a PO, bad news? I was ALMOST full naked during the check la. =D hahahas..

The interview was kind of like relaxing la.. Its totally different from all those interviews that i went before. Im like chatting with 3 SI like friends man. =D Okay.. so there was this qns asked by an male officer; "Which department would you like to be in if you're chosen to be a PO?" Without second thoughts, "CID, Sir." then i continued with telling them how interested i was in crime investigating and etc.. then this female officer told me that being a CID officer wasn't resemble those on tv dramas or movies. She carried on telling me that sometimes, an officer has to be called back even though they are on leave or watching movie with girlfriend. Then, the next question was a question i never thought they will ask even though my career communication tutor told me some empolyer do ask sensitive qns.. "Do you have a girlfriend right now?" =D hahaha.. Seriously, when my tutor told me that.. i thought he was bullshiting la.. who the hell will ask such qns during interviews? Now i understand what my tutot meant. =)

So.. Right now is just wait and wait and more waiting.. Hopefully I will be selected and be able to pursue my dream as a PO. First step towards it has already completed. =D *PRAY*

21st Birthday

So far.. i've attended five 21st birthday party le. Ashley, Bren, Mel, Sophia and Caleb. More to come man.. next will be guangyao and raymond bah. Hahaha.. see.. this is what happen when most of your friends are the same age as you.. HAHAHA=D Everybody de party got its own funny happening la.. most memorable ones will be melvin and sophia de loh. not that the rest was boring ah.. it's definitely fun.. but the both of them de were even funnier la. Mel's birthday funny thing will be his extra large key la. Previously, bren's mum bought him a golden key necklace for him during this party. Apparently mel's mum didn't. So chunsiang thought of something when we saw melvin's birthday cake. There was a pretty huge plastic key on top of the cake for deco. so, chunsiang went to find string then attached it with the key, ask mel's parents to put it on mel. hahahas.. damn funny lah!

Sophia birthday lei.. hahaa.. suspender! Honestly, i didnt know that thing was called a suspender till she told ask it will be the theme for her birthday party. I even went to google it.. hahaha.. =D so on the actual day, our group only me, rechel, norton and tingyu followed the theme only.. the rest not sporting one loh.. hahaa.. Even though it was raining on that day, i believed everyone has enjoyed themselves la.. snapping photos and gossiping.. =) Sincerely hope all the 21yrs old man and woman like their present lah.. Hahaha=D

Thoughts

Recently, there were so many stuff that goes through my mind la. Been thinking about amny things.. you know.. holiday slacker has so much free time, of cos things tend to just come to your mind.. isn't it? Some1 told me that, "Hua bu yao shuo de tai zao" meaning.. "dun say words too early" another meaning for it would be "never be too sure of things". this few words like repeatedly run through my mind for quite a few days lah.. even now when im blogging.. i still can go think about it man.. hahaha.. dun you think this sentence really damn meaningful?

take for example, when some1 broke up with their bf/gf, the one who was being dumped, will always say this very common sentence; "I will wait for you.." In the end, guess what? they eventually found another lover. hahaha.. I cant deny that i wasn't this kind of person la.. that's why it makes me thinking over and over again.. why in the first place i would say something like dat..? maybe a way to console myself? or purely to deceive myself? who knows man!? haha=D

Not only that.. there are tons of examples, like in the past, u always think you will not fall for this particular person.. but who knows what will happen in the future? who knows that particular person will ended up being your husband/wife? Another one could be.. for those road user, one powerful sentence that they will use is "I very safe one" hahaha.. next time when you're able to say this.. think! never be too sure man.. you're safe doesnt mean others are. =) Well.. after all this thinkings, i've finally come out with a conclusion, that is; "dun anyhow make promises!" Hahaha..=D

Alright.. there are some stuff that myself couldnt even explain it.. therefore, i will not tok about it here.. till i manage to put it in words and sentences, when i tell rechel(she must be the first to know.. i promised.. hahaha..), then i tell u ppl. For the moment, i can only use what chunsiang previously said to me.. "the heart wanted to do it but the mind asked it not to." =)

好朋友

小学时期
你和我就是很好的朋友
都一起玩耍一起被骂
从那刻起
我就珍惜着
这独特的一段友情

中学时期
你我分散了我们各走各
需要开始认识新朋友
有点不舍
好想回到过去
当是我们总要长大

幸好我们都会彼此想念对方
才会偶尔约好出来见见面
我们都不会忘每一年的生日
若有一天我们都老了
还会这样吗

十年多的好朋友
时间过得还真快
你我都没什么变
暗地里关心彼此
十年多的好朋友
你曾伤心流泪过
是否对生活烦恼
想找人分享喜悦

我会在这里等着
等着你告诉我
让这一段
美好友谊永远继续着
*Recompose of Show Luo’s “Ai Zhuan Jiao”*

Specially dedicated to JUNE HO

Long since i updated..

it's raining heavily outside,

nothing to do,

therefore,

decided to do an entry.

many things had happened,

in just a blink of an eye,

time really flies..

things that happened:

1) Just finished my last sem exam

2) failed my napfa test

3) gotten PES A for medical status

4) and gotten my things cleared up

right now..

hav to wait for exams result.

if pass, graduate lo.

if fail, tk supp paper.
if supp paper also fail..

one more sem for me..

hahahas..

I just hope everything end one shot la.

oh yah.. some old photos.

didn't update them cos i just gotten it.

enjoy..

默默的天使

从开始到现在
一直都只有我
默默的等着你
不关有多煎熬
不关有多漫长
我都坚持爱你

路过第一次约会的地方
泪然开始从眼眶里流出
我的心有种说不出的痛
有错的人并不是你或我
只能都错怪在那爱神上

想知道你的心在想什么
想知道你在担心些什么
我不相信我们不能挽救
被剪断了的那一条红线
但你却宁愿把它给放弃

在你决定离开后
我的那一片天空
却只有阴没有晴
没有别人将能够
取代你在我心上

让我默默守护着你成为你的专属天使

三年前

三年前的今天
我的心已深深的爱上她
她美丽的脸孔
无时无刻在脑海里出现
期待着能够见到她的身影
但却被无数的阻碍给毁灭

三年后的今天
我的心还依然的爱着她
文静美丽的她
从没离开过我憔悴的心
早说好的幸福并没有实现
她变成了风决定离我而去

不要对我在说道歉
因道歉只会让眼泪
不停的往脸颊流下
唯一希望她会遇到
有能够不顾一切的
给于她幸福的情人
如果她能永远开心
我情愿渐渐被忘记

不要为我感到惭愧
我从没后悔爱上你
怪只能怪罪于上天
让我们相遇却无法相爱
答应我你会开心

我会依然守护着

Can see spiderwebs accumulating around here
Anyway,

Happy New Year to everyone that I know.

Oh yah.. Merry Christmas too!
Hahaha=D

I know I didn't update much due to laziness.
Share began with my new year resolutions.

I'm a greedy person

So,

one is never enough.

=D

1. World Peace (No more Mumbai attacks, etc.. )

2. Get my class2A bike soon (Oh yah! did i mentioned I passed my 2A?)
3. Faster obtain my diploma (Please no supp-paper =D)

Okie.. I can only come out with three of them first.

Some of them were last year's resolution

Just include them this year too man!

Okie, many things happened last few months.

I finally passed my Class2A on 23 Dec

After a month and 3 weeks of waiting

16 demerit points

Hahahahas=D

During the two weeks holiday

it's like I spend most of it exercising la!

Badminton, bowling, swimming, jogging, cycling

seems like im ready for physical fitness test liao?

SERIOUSLY NO!

Hahahas..

Ubin trip with the clique

Sad thing we didn't get to see the wild pig

But i believe everyone enjoyed themselves bah!

Went to Kokjing's POP

Seriously, I hate going to tekong lah!

That ferry just gonna kill me everytime i take it.

Anyway! 3 cheers for private chow man!

A rather "roaring" display from his Training School 1 recuits!

And of cos, let's wish private chow will successfully complete the OCS.

JIA YOU!
Christmas Eve was celebrated at Siang hse

At the same time, an advanced birthday too.

This year celebration was the best one so far.

Games, steamboat, "sextan clause"

I takes my hat off you(chunsiang) man!

He was so daring to dress up "Sextan Clause"

Ya.. it's "Sextan Clause"

AKA, Sexiest Santa Clause!

To end today's entry

Here's one fav photo i took during Christmas eve

Enjoy!

BACK TO HISTORY

Mum showed me some photo albums..

Frankly speaking..

it's damn funny lah!

my dad and mum was like so young and energetic loh!

and my dad actually dressed like a loan shark at his 21st birthday!

here's some of the photo taking through camera phone.

Some very blur la.. =D

Mum & Dad at their twenties

My Sisters & me!

Ohhhh.. that specs was indeed disgusting!

Mum in her wedding dress =)

Can't imagine my dad wear that hat now. -_-!

Me in townsville uniform!

Younger sister de birthday

Who is Stamford Raffles?

wah! Bro bro sia!

Mum at her 21st birthday! So many gifts lah!